2005-07-10 -- 12:51 a.m. I just want to cry. I couldn't finish a movie again because it was too emotional for me to handle. Now I just want to crawl somewhere and fade away. How nice it would be tojust end somehow without killing yourself... does death always have to come through something to someone else? Can't we just will ourselv's into the next demntion? O well... wishfull thinking... maybe I'll just use a knife! Anton